No one really takes this subject seriously, It has both physicological and physical implications.
On a personal matter , I cannot specifically say what game it was that I spent back then " Burning the Midnight oil
" and then some.
It was a time when I first Introduced myself to an online game, along with it, A vast and social online in-game network that
Introduced to persona's from all over the world.
When I first entered this Experience, exploring to me was similar to going out to an Amusement park for the very first time.
I never knew that 'Veteran'
players existed and wondered why I was constantly called ' NOOB'.
This online experience was the equivalent of a second life.
I was actually invited into a guild, .... Wait- Me? Why me? I'm just a ... *Ahem* a 'Newbie'.
How cool, I was now part of a more specific group of players- What was our guilds name? - Eh... I cannot say.
This is were I found myself playing this game " HARDCORE",
The long hours I spent, the sleepless nights working my way thru the ranks.
Earning my reputation amongst my peers, more importantly - I Guess those with Rank higher up were starting to get impressed.
I was quickly promoted, along with my promotion came newfound respect and admiration, Needless to say I had a List of friends a mile long and then some.
Sometimes I had to choose who I had to delete from my own list to make room for an undying request to be my friend.
As time went on, My social activities online were at the very peak - I grew close to a few specific players.
Some of you may understand this, and some of you don't - at this turning point , The one player who took me in when I was first starting out,
Decided it was time to Venture out- Along with it, I was now holding ownership of everything they started.
To me, it was like - Someone dear to me was leaving and it genuinely felt that way.
At this point online social management became more and more of a job if anything else. What followed from this point was Jealousy, animosity and even hatred.
My popularity was at it's peak and for whatever reason, Suddenly - there were many that claimed that knew me personally-
Although, I never really ever met anyone in real life from a game, The claims started to come in , One after another.
Some would say that they were a relative, even a sibling [ LOL i have none., I am an only child
I never thought How bad things could go wrong, and it did - very quyickly.
As much as my reputation was now tainted, I still felt a great deal of dedication and responsibility to those under me who I managed.
All of this began to take it's toll and it started to show at my home, I lost so much weight my own family thought that maybe I was suffering fromBulimia.
But, I Continued, I tried to fix things - Unfortunately everything got much worse and the more I tried - the worse things became.
I was now labeled a Manipulator, A sort of social genius bent of the destruction and disruption of others lives - But, No one really knew what I was going thru.
My so-called friends, Weren't really freinds in the end. Well, there was a few who stuck it out with me to the very end.
at this point, I had to do something - I coudn't continue like this - Though I was labeled a "baby"
and even called " the one who is nothing but drama".
All I ever wanted was to be like by everyone, I quickly found ou tthe hard way.
With much mediation, I finally made a decision, it was the hardest thing that I ever had to do for my sake.
Just before I hit the " Delete character button",
I sat there - In front of my PC face down on my keyboard in a pool of tears.
All I could saw out loud was ' I'm sorry' -
Then I pushed - 'Delete' -
and powered down my pc for the first time in a long time.
Although all of this has come to pass, It all has left me with deep scars that I will soon not forget.